Leave Fear in 2017

I wanted to write something reflective considering it’s the last post of the last Friday of 2017. I like to take stock of the year and sort of do a mental list of what I accomplished, it makes me feel as if I didn’t completely waste my year. I started doing this in my late twenties as a process of getting through any sort of depression. I end up realizing and seeing all the good I’ve done and the great people that surround me. I also reflect what no longer serves me, possibly habits or thoughts or even certain people in my life that aren’t positive or leave me feeling depleted of energy, I decide what to keep and what to let go of. I feel like this habit of reflection has not only helped me understand myself more but gives me the tools to grow, to evolve.
I realized something important today, most of my twenties were spent avoiding certain responsibilities, running away. Failing before I could even try. I was so full of fear. Fear of rejection, people’s judgements and even the fear of accomplishment. If I were to accomplish something then there would be an expectation to do better the next time and I was so scared to fail that I would spend most of my time self sabotaging. There came a certain point when I was sick of the way my life was going. I had nothing left to lose and I just said to myself, “Ef it”. I soon found out just showing up ready and dressed is more than half the battle. You don’t even need to know what you’re doing, just show up! If you want something, it won’t manifest itself unless you put in some effort. That is how the universe works. If I can leave you with one piece of advice for the new year is start the year by saying EF IT. Don’t let fear be your guiding force.
I haven’t been my 30s very long so I can’t claim that I know much but I have lived and experienced many highs and many lows. The moment I started living is the moment I stopped being afraid. To all our lovely readers have a safe and happy new year! We’ll see you in 2018..